This has been so hard for me, I lost my grandmother in March of this year. She was the one that believed in me when I was younger. I lost my rock and the day I laid her to rest hurt me so much that I wanted to join her that day. Now that it is the holiday season I miss her more and more. I remember smelling turkey in the oven and helping her setting the table for dinner. Christmas is going to be the hardest time of year for me, smelling a real tree and helping decorate the tree. I will always remember those days and I don't want to ever forget those memories.