Well, my heart got crushed again and again, yet I have been trying so hard to protect it but even protecting it didn't help. Yes, I am married but I did have an affair with someone I should have left in my past. He loved to drink and start fights when I was happy. He said he was in it for my heart but all he did was crush it by calling me names someone that truly loves you shouldn't call you. He also liked to say I am just like his ex's even tho I never gave him any reason to say that. I went down to see him all the time and he only came up maybe 4 to 5 times. I made more trips to see him than he made to see me. He complained that he would have to spend money, but to me if you love someone you would do what you could see them with no excuses, am I right? He don't like that I talk to my co-workers and only wants me to talk to him but yet he can talk and flirt with females while I am talking to him, this is not fair. He kept saying we're done but says he didn't mean it, and believe him. He threatens to kill himself and since he said it all the time, I stopped believing him, cause to him it is a game. He thinks I am playing games with him but he is so blind that he don't see he was the one playing the games with my heart, I didn't play any games with his heart. How do you get someone like that to see how they are hurting you and get them to change or do you think they will ever change? I will explain more later, cause there is a lot more to say about this guy.

 This has been so hard for me, I lost my grandmother in March of this year. She was the one that believed in me when I was younger. I lost my rock and the day I laid her to rest hurt me so much that I wanted to join her that day. Now that it is the holiday season I miss her more and more. I remember smelling turkey in the oven and helping her setting the table for dinner. Christmas is going to be the hardest time of year for me, smelling a real tree and helping decorate the tree. I will always remember those days and I don't want to ever forget those memories.

Hate life but loving me

I am so sick of seeing people fight and half of them don't even understand what the fight is about. These dumb assess fight for what, to get their names on the paper or their faces on the news? I love my self more than they will love themselves, the childish crap when they don't get their way. Come on people grow the hell up, I am not going to kiss your ass just so you can look all tough. You need to use the brains the good Lord above gave you and earn money and respect the old fashioned way. Get off your lazy ass and work, none of you are going to get things by demanding it. If I tried that when I was younger, I would have had my ass busted, oh wait I did and I learned from it. Take this advise, you have to love and respect yourself before anyone else will, cause you only have you too blame if you don't get your way.

Long time

Well it had been a long time since I have done this but I have a few things to say. I am sick and tired of the NFL disrespecting our flag. They say they are doing it cause of our police officers. I got news for you, our military is who we honor with that flag. You think that just because one person did it you would follow, you are just a bunch of sheep. Would you jump off a bridge of Colin jumped off the bridge? I am also sick of these teenagers that thinks we owe them things, got news for you, we don't owe you shit. You want something, get off your assess and get a job. I know people that have worked all their lives just to get where they are today. I also have this to say, all the refugees that are in this country needs to leave. You are not going to come over here and just take over. You were allowed to come over by Obama and now that he is out of office, you need to leave. You want to change anything go back to wherever you are from and doing the changing over there. Oh and Muslims you really need to stop demanding we change cause you don't like our food. You are in America and we eat pork, so if you don't like it, get the hell out. This is how I feel and if you doing like what I'm saying then get over it.

To all our troops, come home safe too your families, and thank you for your service.

Sick sucks

This really sucks, I started getting sick today and now my daughter is to, will this ever stop

Fun fun

Well I am at the ER with my son, it is 3:38 in the morning and we are waiting on the flu test results. I am bored and tired and I still need to stop and get gas for my van. I hate when my kids are sick, I blame parents that don't want to get a sick child checked by their doctor. My son is being happy but he wants to go home just like I do. I am just so wanting to go home and sleep till who knows when.

Saint Jude's

If any of you have lost loved ones to cancer them you know how important it is to find a cure. Saint Jude's is doing just that for childhood cancer. Come on guys and gals donate to help find a cure not only to Saint Jude's but to other places that help with finding a cure for cancer.