Feeling sad

Today was Thanksgiving but it was the first Thanksgiving since my aunt Susie died and it was not like it use to be. I miss her everyday, it is going to be hard during Christmas too. I wish I could see all my family alive or dead. The ones that died are missed everyday.

Thanksgiving

I want to wish everyone a happy Thanksgiving, I am thankful for my family and friends. This Thanksgiving I would like for our officers to stay safe and get home to their families and the crybabies to grow the hell up. Life is hard enough but you people are making people want to arm themselves to protect their families cause you don't want to grow up. Go home and be with your families and I hope your family smacks you up side the head hard enough to get you acting like an adult and not a baby.

My thoughts part 2

Well I'm sitting here at the dealership getting the oil changed and I don't know why but I think that the world sucks. All I know is we have someone going into office that will do something for us not the other people in this world. I may not have voted for him but I have a good feeling about him, he will not take the salary cause he has enough money on his own, he will not take vacations because he knows that when someone takes vacations nothing gets done. Everyone that is throwing a fit cause he got in, get a life and grow up. I will tell you this no matter the person, that person always messes up but you have to understand that life does suck, I believe in the heart of a person not the cover of the book the person is. Life is hard enough without problems, you cry babies make it even harder when you bitch cause you are not getting what you think you deserve. I want love easy but that will not happen till our Lord in heaven comes down and takes his followers to heaven.

Riots and what it is doing to this country

I have to say, you people that riot cause the person person you didn't vote for got in is so damn stupid. Life is not going to be fair to anyone, bit you acting like complete idiots makes it worse. Give our new president a chance and if he don't do what he says he will do then we as people can have him impeached. Get over it, you are destroying your homes and businesses that people work so hard to build. You are nothing but cry babies. I will admit I didn't vote for Donald but guess what i am not going out acting like an insane person. I didn't vote Hillary cause she is the insane person. If you love this country like you say you so, ban together not fall apart.

My thoughts on this election

Well Donald Trump is president and that means, that lying, no good Hillary Clinton lost. She would have let illegals completely take over this country, she would have allowed black lives matter to keep going on with their disrespecting and destruction. I am glad she didn't get in because she doesn't care about the American people.

My thoughts

Well, this world is losing its mind. We have people out there that protest over criminals getting shot cause they are being so stupid. Then you have some cops and I am not saying all of them, because I respect them and their field, that don't know how to control themselves. Two that I am aware of are being charged or have been charged with sexual assault and they are being treated worse than the criminals that do the same thing. What the hell is wrong with the judges? I can't stand bad cops or criminals, but there is a lot of good people out there that deserve to be able to actually do good. For anyone that is a BLM supporter you should be ashamed of yourself. They don't care about the common citizens all they care about is the criminals. If you look at the protests they do it is all for the criminals and yet in Chicago their are innocent children losing their lives to violence and they are not in arms about that, you should ask yourself, should I be supporting people like that, that don't care about me and all they are about are the criminals? Get your heads out of your assess and do your own thinking. If you don't like what i have to say that is fine but I will support our officers cause they have to deal with dumbass people like the BLM everyday. I maybe white but I will protest the killing of innocent young men and women but I draw the line at protesting for criminals, YOU SHOULD TOO!!!!!!!

Lost in thought

Why does someone with no kids want to tell you  how to be a parent? I can take suggestions from another parent but when you don't have kids don't throw in your two cents. You see I have a child with autism and I will take suggestions on what to do to get him help, but if you tell me that i have to do this and this then you will have a fight on your hands. To the parents of any child your suggestions can help me out a lot. I am sorry but no matter what, if you don't have kids no matter what happen, to me, you should keep your parenting advise to yourself. Life is hard enough having kids that are small, I don't want advise from someone that has no idea what I am going through.

House work

Well today I cleaned out my closet and it looks so much better. I have the kitchen to do next and I can't wait, I am tired of all the trash that we seem to gather everytime we turn around.

What is on my mind

I am sitting here waiting to go back to talk to my doctor about how I am doing on my medication, it is for PTSD, bipolar disorder, depression and other mood disorders. I get to thinking what the hell this country is coming to when parents don't put the fear of God into their kids. Parents now days let their kids do what ever they want and to hell with everyone else. Then bitch when someone else teaches their kids a lesson. I am so sick of parents not growing up and actually being parents, if they didn't want to grow up then why did they even have kids? When I was a kid I was parented, I was grounded, I had my ass busted, of i didn't want to eat I didn't eat. Now days people think that is abuse, guess what it isn't, your cold talks back to you and you don't put your foot down, that child will not survive in the real world. Parents I know you have heard this before, you became a parent by choice so do me a favor grow your ass up, take reasonability for that child you had cause they are yours till you die. Stop teaching them to hate and start teaching them to love each other. They really need to learn that respect is the most important thing, so come on parents start teaching your child how to give respect so they can earn it from other people.

Don't disrespect the flag

The flag we stand to and put our right hand over our hearts is a flag that deserves our respect. We are free cause the men and women died to keep us free, thank you for your sacrifice and to the military family, you are strong and keep us knowing what your family is doing over there. You all are strong and have faith that your family will come home safe. I will never teach my children to disrespect the flag of our nation, I am proud my children say the pledge of allegiance. I don't like when someone healthy but disrespects what that flag stand for. I want all that disrespects the flag to be punished for that should be a crime.

Love

Love is something we need to do everyday, we are all God's children and we need to treat everyone with respect. I was raised to be respectful to others but when I don't get the respect I give out then they don't deserve it back. Love one another cause we are all human and we do have loved in our hearts, we need to show it.

Crazy world

Well things are just crazy right now, ISIS is trying to be like the Germans back during WWII. They want people to be just like them and our president doesn't want to do anything but give into to them. He wants to fuel the races to see who kills who first, I am so sick of how he treats the American people. He thinks that we will follow what he says, I am not that kind of person, I will not follow someone that has no clue how to run a country. I have a family that loves me and needs me, I have friends that I treat with respect and they will always get my respect. I know that this country has gone crazy cause people are allowing others with power to think for them, come on people use your brains and start thinking for yourself. How are you letting someone that is a head of this country tell you how you should act and think when growing up your parents taught you to think for yourselves? I will never let anyone tell me how to vote, anyone that don't like how i vote can kiss my ass. Everyone sees things differently but I know how I feel and what I think. If your life sucks then change it don't just bitch about it. You want to stop getting pulled over by officers them just follow the law. You don't want to be tackled by officers, stop running and breaking the law. You abide by the law then things would go smoothly. The riots need to stop cause all you are doing is burning down your own cities, innocent people are getting hurt and you don't give a damn. I know that BLM and the New Black Panthers are into wanting violence and ignore any type of problem solving solution, they want to be the only ones standing. Well guess what, killing our officers is just making people stand by them more. BLM and the New Black Panthers are not leaders, leaders are suppose to take us in the right direction not the wrong direction. My leader is Jesus Christ and will always be my leader. To the ones calling for the killings of officers and all whites, I hope you burn. Sorry about this but the good should always out way the bad in everyway. To every citizen of the United States, we need to come together and show others of the world that we can fight for what our freedoms but if they see is fighting each other then they will look at us and think that the strongest country is going to be easy to take over. Let's just sit back and let them destroy themselves, then we can take their country from them. Do me a favor, hit your knees and pray that we can all come together and fight for our freedoms again, that means taking out someone that is breaking us apart from the inside. WE need to get Obama out of office and get someone in that we know will turn this country back into the great nation it use to be.

Get a life BLM

Well they are at it again, BLM rally needs to take a step back and look at the mess they are causing. Having been on this earth almost 40 years I have never seen such disregard for human life. I don't care the color of the skin or you're job, respect people. I applaud parents that are teaching their kids right from wrong, respect others, and working hard will get you places. I have always been told to treat others how you want to be treated, well with BLM, that went out the window with their up bringing. They treat people like crap but they expect to be treated with respect, you have to give respect to get respect. I don't feel sorry for you if you don't get respect, that is not what you need, you need a good kick in the ass. You protest when a thug gets killed by a cop but you don't protest when an innocent person is killed by that thug that killed by officers. You want to riot and destroy businesses cause a thug that resisted arrest and tried to kill an officer was killed by the officer he was trying to kill. You really need to understand that there is a reason they are getting shot. Where was BLM when Travon Martin was killed in cold blood for just walking from the store to his dad's house? I will tell you, no where cause he was not killed by an actual officer, the person that killed him was just a civilian that was a wanna be cop. Travon was innocent and, he had no weapons all he has was a pack of skittles and a drink. People were out raged but here is the thing they were making a statement about the guy that murdered him, the media tried their hardest to paint the victim as a thug but the people that knew him didn't believe it. Unlike BLM and the family of actual thugs saying they didn't deserve to be killed, will of they are trying to kill an officer then yes they deserve it. Life does suck, but boo hoo how your think criminals need to get away with a crime by shooting at officers or beating innocent people. If you don't like what I am saying or what others are saying then change your out look, so showing the ignorance of the brain the good Lord above gave you.

To the family's of innocent victims that lost loved ones to murder, I send my prayers and thoughts your way. Stay strong and put Lord will help you through this tragic time.

People deserve better

Well this day of rage sounds like just another excuse to damage property and do as they want. If BLM world's use the brains God have them, then maybe they wouldn't be acting like thugs calling for the death of good cops because of two or three bad cops. Good cops don't want anything to do with the bag apples, BLM on the other hand would rather have the bad apples running the streets so then they can call the cops and say my house just broken into or my daughter was raped. No wonder you are not safe in your home's, you want crooks and criminals on the street, but when they are shot you say oh he wasn't doing anything wrong, he was so sweet and he wouldn't hurt a fly. I have news for you if the criminal pulled a gun and shot a child in cold blood he is a criminal, there is no excuse for that. When they pull a gun on a cop and get shot, you want to bitch about police brutality, got news for you there to, the guy got what he deserved if that is the way the investigation comes out to show. So bitching that he was shot for no reason, stay off your phone and pay attention, of you want to play the victim them we will treat you like a victim, of you want to show the criminals that you are a survivor them that shows them that they will never break you. STOP playing the victim and stand strong against all crime, you want your BLM movement to mean something start in the area you have the most crime, the black neighborhood. The black on black killings is getting out of hand, tell the gangs, criminals, drug dealers no more. Our life matters and yours don't, of you get shot that will be one more shit head off or corners, but no you want to go after the cops that are trying to make your neighborhoods safer. Get off that damn high horse of yours so you can see what this so called movement is allowing people to do at breaking another law. I will tell you this, when white crooks get shot by cops, the reason we don't take to the streets is we know the criminal deserved it. That is why we just go on about our day and don't think about much of it. The reason why is we look at ourselves as survivors not victims. BLM is milking the victim card, they make themselves victim by allowing the violence against other blacks to keep going on. STOP and look at what you are doing to yourself and your children. Teach your child to love not hate, to over come not wallo in self pity. STOP PLAYING THE VICTIM CARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tired of the BS

Well let's see where do I start? We have innocent people getting killed, we have police officers that is only doing their jobs getting killed, we have the government saying pretty much we need to bow down to thugs cause they didn't do anything wrong. I have news for you no matter the race, age, origin, or your beliefs the only one I will ever bow down to is my maker Lord Jesus Christ. Everyone that says you don't have a right to be who you are is so wrong, that person has no idea what they are taking about. When you were younger, your parents told you that you can grow up and be who ever you want. I still believe that today, to the thugs out there what in the world did this life so to you besides give you a chance to make something of yourself and you just crapped all over that. In the eyes of our Lord we are all equal, he died for us, shed his blood for us on that cross and you dare say that you robe and kill cause good will forgive you for that. My god teaches love and forgiveness not hate and retaliation that is Satan's hand. I know that we all can be forgiven for what we have done but when you get forgiven don't go out and do it again expecting him to keep forgiving you over and over because sooner or later he will stop and then you will wonder why he is not on on your side anymore. I believe if you break the law you need to be punished no matter how it comes. If you don't help yourself out of that situation then that is on you not your family and not your friends. To everyone that is out there be safe and as officers say watch your 6.

Uniting

Since the shooting in Dallas, I have been wanting to say, we all need to come together and tell these crooks and thugs we are not going to put up with it. Every single life matters, blacks, whites, Hispanics, Asians, police officers, military, rich, poor and everyone in between. We have to stand up for people that can't find their voice. Martin Luther King Jr. didn't want us divided he was trying to unite us. Five officers lost their lives in Dallas cause of their uniform, others were hit that also includes blacks. You know where we need to start, we need to stop the violence in our neighborhoods. This means speak out for your friends and families that have been hurt or killed by the same color as your are. Stop listening to people that think they can make life better when all they do is hurt you. Gangs will hurt you or just plain out get you killed. Find a roll model to look up to that doesn't call for violence. Stay in school, get an education and make something of yourself. Show them you are the one with the control of your life not this life of crime.

Depressed

I am depressed and it is not that I am going to be 40, I am just depressed cause I don't know what to do anymore. I want to have a night out with friends, but my friends are busy with family. I wish I could do something to bring my spirits up but I have no clue how to do it.

About my lame life

In school I was not a smart kid, my grades sucked, I did enjoy having friends but it was hard to live up to my brother. He was a football player, baseball player, soccer player, and basketball player. He was an honor student and popular, I felt out of place with him as my brother. How is someone to live up to someone like my brother, he got everything handed to him. When I got into college I felt good without my brother, I didn't graduate cause in some part of me didn't feel like college wasn't for me. I did go back and took a class in camping and made an A. I tried different college but it just didn't feel right. Same as all the other times, I wasn't smart and I didn't get good grades. I wanted to be a lawyer but I put myself down cause I can't do it anymore. I felt that I am hard on myself but I have always been depressed and no matter what I will not be that good.

Life today

Back when I was younger life seemed so simple but now that I am older I realize I was shielded from the problems. I love my life, my family, and my friends. They have kept me from going insane so many times. Thank you Lord for showing me that I can survive anything life throws at me.

Life is crazy

Well I have had a crazy life but what makes it better is good friends and a loving family. I don't know where I would be without all of them. Having kids that not only make sure you are ok but love and forgive you even when you don't give into them. I let my kids know everyday that I love them. For my family up in heaven, we miss you so much.